HOme SwEEt HoME

congratulations hani!!! u're free to go now.. good bye.. see u again in a month. dat what am thinking as soon as i crossed the main gate of uniten. i feels relief. no more assignments, no more test, no more quiz, which mean no more pressure and no more tension after all. am happy and couldn`t stop grinning " macam kerang Busuk ". i can hear the rhythm in my head .. very soft rhythm singging to me all the way back to my house. i`m gettin excited.

"Big wheels keep on turning

Carry me home to see my kin

Singing songs about the south-land

I miss 'my home' once again"

and now i`m home. Home SwEEt Home.. i woke up in the morning and the aroma of mum's cook give me the hunger pangs which i always miss. btw, my mum is not really good in cook as she has no much time at home. as what i can remember, our menu is almost the same everyday since both of my little brothers are the most choosey and fussy in foods more than anyone in this world. CUrRy ayam , CurrY iKan, Curry DAGING and all types of currys are most favourable for them. never eat fish except for curry, never eat vege, never eat seafoods, but they love sushi very much and KFC for sure! and sometimes we have masak lemak, tomyam ayam, papprik and soup thats all. I still remember when my brother was a little kid around age 3-4. He call the restaurant as "rumah org" so, every morning he will ask my father to bring him breakfast at "Rumah org".
normally he'll say "baba, nak makan roti canai kat rumah org?" haha.. its funny. And one more thing about him, he loves to play with cam very much!!

i really have no idea what he trying to do or trying to be, but its always make me big lough. i think he is kind of creative person. and have creative mind of thinking. He always make us lough at loud. and both of them always be the happiness in my family.

sometimes he did stupid little things whatever he could to take it as a joke

the funny faces

during hari raya in kampung

the side view of my little brother

blissfull

its holiday special

i keep grinning my self when everytime i saw my new BirDy Little Blog which are so So SO.. SUPER cute ! haha~ Very SpecIAL ThANKS TOO mY hoUSEMATE sUE, for her contributionS AND efforts to MY Blog. She's so so so great in designing and so what ever with HTML code which i have none, the HTML cOde is just merely on her finger tip and everything she did for me while i was just looking at her, impressing, i guess this is something new for me to explore and and this going to be some kind of much fun for a month break !! now, i`ve start to miss my friends already, Sara, sheilalala~, boom, alin, sharina, dilla, sue, dilla, elya, and alll of them. dilla is already on her way back to TeRengaaGANU, sara will going back home in perak soon after finishing our Vlsi Report while Sheila keep loyal with her FYP and her supervisor. The rest.. still struggling to pack their stuffs. and finally we all going back to home and having great time with family..by the way i already have a to do list starting from tomorrow.. always been thinking for unnecessary things that make my life miserable. happy holiday to all!!!!



to do list

1. C proggramming (FYP forever)
   
2. Otcl language (its all about FYP)
   
3. taking my little brother to sport team park
   
4. applying for Industrial training
5. house keeping for sure!
   

tido la tido

penatnya hari nie.. esuk pagi kul 9-00 ad satu paper . hopefully everything will be fine.. risau gak kalau tiba2 blank esuk ape la gaknya aku nak bantai nanti. haha~ telur ayam jer la.. dah la nak goreng pun tak reti.. haih... sedih jer bunyi.. sekarang baru nak masuk solat isyak tepat kul 8.00 mlm tapi mata dah separuh mcm penyu. org ckap ape pun dah tak dgr .. satu je yang aku nampak sekarang bantal dan tilam best nya tido~~ alangkah indahnya dunia hanya aku bantal dan tilam. dunia kami bagaikan yang tak berpenghujung .. oh tilam.. oh bantal.. eh lupa pulak selimut!!! kesian kat dia haha~ well ...dah sampai masenye kita berjuang dlm mimpi =P nite~~

my super ex hero

(sigh...) even dah masuk 3 thn still could not get over him.. nie la masalah yang selalu dihadapi kaum hawa and i beleive that i`m not the only one who has this kind of feeling .. alott more of people outside there having the same prob with me .. be strong !!! dont ever u loose faith.. the monotony of love make u really sick of it.. the pain was almost more than u could bear.. but, in these new century and new generation of peoples.. we have to move forward and always moving forward bcoz once we fall down its difficult to heals the wound.


walau apapun... kamu sentiasa di ingatan.. saya pasti mendoakan kamu.. semoga kamu bahagia

looking for lucky star

weee hoooo.. taking up my self above the sky~ singing to my heart as no one can hear nothing.. i feel free.. 2 papers down and 2 more left.. hopefully i could improve my results this year.. as i'm walking ahead to MPH .. i heard my heart beat so much, beating faster and faster, its always happening. i try to control by walking slowly.. deep breath for few times.. recite the prayer .. trying to adapt with the so called exam environment.. then when my finger just start to dance on the paper.. suddenly! poop! all black! oh my God, oh God all blank! i`m panic and nervous what i do?? out of 100% , just 50% memory left in my brain. the rest 50% have totally gone~~ gosh! this is really bad!!. haha~ pity me... clumsy me... this happen almost everytime in the final exam~ i could not get over the neverousness in my self. hate it!! but now, i did it!!! i manage to control my self better than anyone does.. some improvement of my self.. i would say that i`m alil bit proud~. VLSI vs POWER E. the next paper need to be focus on. there's alott of work to finish more "Ya Allah, berikanlah aku ketenangan untuk menjawab peperiksaan dgn cemerlang, berikanlah aku kejayaan di dunia dan akhirat dan berikanlah aku kekuatan untuk menempuh segala dugaanMu," amin.. i`m still lookin for a lucky star... if anyone have.. pls =P

hingga ke hujung dunia

Looking at those 2 pics above make me wonder how beautifull my life is, the smiling faces throw away all the nightmares i had.. no one could imagine what ive been through in my childhood and even me always feels scared to talk about it till now, there is so much thing in my head till i could not breath, sometimes i feels that i`m a psycho person, i pretend not to be but that's is something is wrong somewhere..

ive been crying for 22 years .. my broken family, loosing my brother, my personal life, everything.. messed up, bored !! lost my self in the middle of the sea where no one could reach me. i wish i could get back my self to see the smiling faces from the deep heart. sometimes life is so meaningless.. sometimes life coloured the way of someones life.. sometimes life is just nothing.

Hari raya 2008- give me thoughts that i have to take back pieces of memory i've left long time before.. my dad.. i dont noe how i did it.. but for the first time in life i'm hugging my dad with full of love and crying.. and for the first time i`m calling him 'abah' still crying.. I never know my father .. never i know how its feels to have a father.. when i saw someone talking with his father i wonder my self about dad.. its really hard to forgive him after all.. and this year, is the most memorable moment in my life.. i will remember this till the end.. and as for him, i have back all the pieces of memory that i've left long time before..

sTiNgY

OMG!!! why this thing are really hard to deal with. i have lost my patience right now!!! could not stand anymore.. i`ve been tried to install this so called 'XaNDRoSS ' and 'Ns2' thing for thousand times but why still could not work?? agaGAGAGgaga... i curse u to be a frog 'com -com' then only u will know how powerfull am i.. hehe..by all means!