Friday, February 8, 2008

jika dan hanya jika

jika dan hanya jika aku telah ketemu..
aku pasti bahagia..

jika dan hanya jika aku sempat berdiri sebelum aku terjatuh..
aku pasti gembira..

jika dan hanya jika aku dewasa sebelum aku kecil
tiada siapa yang akan terluka..

jika dan hanya jika aku mampu merubah
ku kan sentiasa tersenyum.

jika dan hanya jika hanyalah dalam bisikan hatiku. kerna aku hanya mampu berbisik tidak mampu untuk meluah.

inspired by.. hehe

Thursday, February 7, 2008

"words" does not suits me

since i kid untill now.. i always heard people said that we have to beleive in Allah, do we really understand how? how is the correct way to show that i`m beleiver? how ? is it by praying? is it in the heart? yes it is but how?? why i dont know the answer? why the question keep coming to my head? if i`m the truth beleiver i`m sure i will know the answer but its not there.. just empty.. even i pray, even i recites the holy Quran, even my parent gave me strong basic religion, but still something is missing in the heart. i know that. and today, after been waiting for so long.. i got the answer finally, i start to understand everything.. everything that happened in my life.. the hard life i had.. its all looks clear in front of me. "beleive in Allah" i know the truth meaning behind of this short phrase now. Beleive that everything is all by Allah.. and i`ll not afraid to anything except Allah.Its not just words for me anymore it brings so much meaning . Either we realy understand or not, thats matter for me. I wanna feel so happy inside, walk freely and smile from my heart. Not just pretending. Thats what i really want in life.. i have opened my heart and accept everything that come to my life.

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

i`m truely free

hijab

why hijab?

why i need hijab?

to preserve

my dignity, modesty, integrity. I WEAR IT SO PROUDLY!

manusia bodo aka "lelaki itu"

damn u man~

gelaran yang paling tepat buat "lelaki itu"

kebenarannya luka ku masih di situ di bawah permukaan

tetapi aku bijak dalam menyembunyikannya

memori hanya membawa aku hidup dalam kebencian






haruskah aku??







patutkah aku??






itu bukanlah jalan hidup yang ku pilih.

kerana aku tau kebencian hanya akan membawa manusia kepada kemusnahan

Allah tidak suka umatnya membenci sesama mahluk

apatah lagi memutuskan persaudaraan

seluruh umat islam adalah saudaraku

siapalah aku untuk menghukum

astagfirullahalazim..

Allah Maha Pengampun lagi Maha Penyayang.


Saturday, February 2, 2008

the people under my judgement

i was really bored.. i got nothing to do today.. i just wanted to get my mind free and the only thing i could do is talking with someone.. so... that was my interest for the time being. talk talk and talk even i don't know what am i talking about but, i just do it becoz sometimes thing happen without any reasons.. it just happen and after it happened, then only people will start to think the reason behind of it.. i have no life before, i had no topic to talk, no interest with ANYTHING, in short, I'm bored person.. thats the fact yes !proud of it.

By the way i've met a few type of people. I have categorized them to some group

1. They will be a good listener but very poor to express them self
2. some one that has a 'king' in their life and born to be so lucky yet they still not happy.. with the "big fat" crap things
3. Very strong person inside and outside of personality
4. the person who afraid to face the fact that life would never be always"success", but they have no problems at all, even they still can enjoy their life as life goes on.

My first Words

hi.. my fingers start playing with the keyboard gently and.. this is the first word i got in my mind hehe.. i wish i could have my own little world and there! i got it finally.. this new blog where ican express my thoughts and having little dicussion with my self.. sounds scary isn't it? by the way, i`m not a phsycic thats for sure! starting my day chatting with my best friend used -to- be, was really exciting me.. the sadness will always remain in the heart and keep it by my self .. as my life story always start with saddness, it becomes part of me unseparated and soon turn to be a syndrome. not down syndrome but i called it by name "thesaddersyndom"( kah kah kah.. got it from a tv show). Im so blissfull, after years .. my whole life getting better as me grows up. I was woke up from my beautifull dream, where i found me my self standing in the center of million people , and everyone of them looking at me with wholehearted smiling face. Just imagine how i feel.. talking about dream.. too much words to say .. if a picture can show my brain cells fighting each other to vomit out from my head.. its worth more than thousand words. (sigh...)